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Monday, August 31st, 2009
8:46 am
Caw-Sea-Know
I have to keep my distance from these... they're too much fun.

With 30 dollars of "Free Play," I played this Star Trek machine (don't laugh... I just liked it because the chair looks like a Captain's Chair and vibrates when you win) and made another 30 dollars on it. It's so exciting and overstimulating when you win. Before you know it, you're all, "Whoa... it's 11pm? Dammit! I have to get home and sleep since I have to teach tomorrow!"
Tuesday, August 11th, 2009
11:37 am
*rises from the dead, stretches, and does the Thriller Dance*
Life in America is especially hilarious when you're an outsider living in here. Living in America gives you a, "Oh, my God! Everyone's trying to get us! We can't let that happen!" Me, though, coming from the outside look at this as, "Really, America? Really? This country you feel is out to get you is full of people who consider half a plate of smelly rice and a banana peel to be a feast fit for a King."

American culture in Southern California never ceases to amaze me. A channel called MTV seems to be the real leader, not the elected Governor, Representatives, and Mayors. What the people see and hear in that channel is immediately considered cool. Not only cool, but they act as if it has always been cool and that if you don't know, then you're not "with it." Even if this person just heard about the new trend the other day and barely got into it that morning.

I traveled recently... made great friends, saw new places, and really had a great time. No schedules to follow. Have you noticed that before? Ask an American what they'll do on vacation, and they pretty much have every minute planned out. Ask anyone else, and they'll go, "I don't really know. I just want to go there and check it out."

I fell in love again. Something that I learned in life is that you must let yourself fall in love. It makes life so much more interesting. It's almost like those emo avatars describe it as "Falling in love is making yourself vulnerable and giving your heart to someone while trusting them not to break it." Strange how that works, but it does.

I am part of two emotional affairs. Two of them, and they are not very fun to be part of them. I described it once to a friend that it's like being stuck in Quicksand, and that the more you struggle to get out the worse you'll end up. No sir, they're not good.

Aww-knee-way... that's just some of the latest greatest happening on my side of the world. Any questions or comments? Send them my way
Wednesday, May 28th, 2008
10:55 am
And I Look Up...
There are some things in life that I don't tolerate. Among them are abuse of any kind, and racism. Abuse is very clear-cut and easy to spot. Racism has the ability to change and evolve with time, which makes it tough to point out these days. Before the days of the Civil Rights movements, it was easy to see who was the good guy, and who was the bad guy regarding racism. Today, racism is still rampant, but hidden behind a mask.

I've been abused before. It took me a while to find out it was happening until it was almost too late. People around me knew it, but, when you're in love you don't tend to see it happening at all. You're blinded by love and always think that things will get better soon. It never does, does it?

The abuse I faced was emotional and flat-out neglect. I've come to terms with that, now. Slowly, I'm getting through and sorting my life out. I know now that she caused quite a bit of damage in my life. If I had gone on through life as I was weeks ago, it would be as if my car is in need of drastic repairs and I take it on a long trip from San Diego to the tip of South America. Chances are that I won't make it. Chances are that at some point, the car will break down and I won't be able to repair it. Luckily, I've spotted my problem. I may have a broken heart, but, I am rebuilding. I've picked up the pieces, chose what's good, and rebuilt. I know what works, and what doesn't. At the same time, I made another mistake.

My mistake is that while I am rebuilding, I became quite defensive. I became defensive of the world and everything in it. I grew to not trust anyone, think that everyone's out to get something from me, and pretty much locked my heart away. I figured that this is not the answer. What made me happy with my ex was how open I was with her. To have someone that I can talk to about anything that comes to my mind no matter how ridiculous or brilliant my ideas are. It made my heart happy.

Locking my heart away, though. That's when I knew that I was really losing the battle. Sure, I was using my mind a lot more to get around, thinking rationally, and avoiding mistakes at all costs. What I lost was my reckless sense of adventure. Locking my heart away, I didn't take risks, have fun, or did anything crazy. I love that feeling before going to bed and telling myself, "That was a fun day. I wonder what tomorrow will be like." I didn't have that before when I just went through life thinking rationally.

Today, I am easing up. I am talking to people. I am getting out more. I took up the hobby of playing the guitar, even writing songs. I've been good about keeping my promise about not writing any more songs about her, though. At first, it was all I did. Good songs, sad songs, and all about her. I am relearning to trust people, too.

So far, I have trusted only one person with my relationship. She knows all the details and the whole story about how I came to be. While she's just one person, at least I know that I was able to open up once more.

I may have reached the point where I wrote in my last song about her. A point that I describe as, "And I Look Up." I already hit my low point. There's nowhere to go but up.
Monday, March 31st, 2008
9:58 am
Updates...
Here's what I'm up to...

Family: We suffered a loss in the family. One of my uncles passed away late last week. His funeral will be either tomorrow or Wednesday. It's the first brother that my dad loses. He's feeling pretty out of it, but we keep him company. Also, we have a new addition to the family. Last night, baby Sofia was born. That's all I know. By now, she's probably being held by everyone and pampered by the family

School: I am in Spring Break. I like that I don't have to go to school all week, but, feel bummed that I have to work

Work: I'm bummed that I have to work, but happy that I don't have to go to school afterwards

Videos: I posted more videos on YouTube...

www.youtube.com/sdsuaztec

However, they're not the Comics that I keep postponing. I'll get to it, though

Dating: I go out, but not date. I'm going out again this weekend with Jessica, which is nice. I feel bad about it at the same time since she's facing an Emotional Affair with me

Pictures: I took more pics recently... "Shout Out" pictures, really. They're posted on the other site I visit

www.fubar.com

That's about it... got anything on your mind about me, let me know

Your friendly neighborhood SDSU_Aztec
Friday, March 21st, 2008
9:52 am
Updated Pics
Just a couple of pictures... nothing special...

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Thursday, March 20th, 2008
10:40 am
The Latest Greatest...
Hmm...

Has it really been 7 months since I last posted on here? That's way overdue for an update, isn't it?

Relationship - nonexistant... Since the last time I posted on here, Taniya and I went on a break, I was neglected, and it brought upon a breakup that was hard to avoid. At the moment, I have no one, still have that empty feeling, but still alive

School - Grad School is definitely "Super College." Class begins tough and doesn't let up. It'll all be over soon, though

Work - California is creating budget cuts towards Education. Because of that, every teacher's job is on the line. Scary, isn't it? If I happen to get laid off, I have a backup plan

Family - my brother is moving out from Costa Mesa to Huntington Beach. I have to help him move out since he'd rather use family to help him move rather than friends up where he lives... this irks me

I think that's about it. If I missed anything you're curious of, let me know.

Your friendly neighborhood SDSU_Aztec

www.youtube.com/SDSUAztec
Monday, August 13th, 2007
8:10 am
Love Made Me Drunk
All my friends they say I'm crazy for loving you
You're driving me to drink myself drunk before noon
You say you're coming back so I'll wait for a blue moon

I open the door
Watch your ghost appear once more
You tell me lies
I just nod with a smile
And I raise my glass
To your health
Love of my life
You treat me so well
Oh so well

The nights are longer than the days
That is for sure
So drunk on cough syrup
It tastes like a fancy liqueur
Oh you say that you're coming back
So I composed an overture

I open the door
Watch your ghost appear once more
You tell me lies
I just nod with a smile
And I raise my glass
To your health
Love of my life
You treat me so well
Oh so well

I open the door
Watch your ghost appear once more
You tell me lies
I just nod with a smile
And I raise my glass
To your health
Love of my life
You treat me so well
Oh so well
Saturday, May 26th, 2007
8:20 am
Howdy
You know that feeling you get when something very bad is going to happen, but you can't tell when or where it will happen? I have that feeling right now, and it's driving me insane. I tried to nail what it is so that it won't be so shocking when it happens, but seem to be getting nowhere. It's not work, that's very secure. It's not the car, I have it running great. It's not money, since I keep saving as if money will run out next month. It could be the family, but the big things are happening to everyone else while my immediate family is having good times. It's not my health, since I'm in nice shape and taking care of myself.

The only other thing I can think of is Taniya. I really hope it's nothing, but with her, you never know. Sometimes, I get the feeling that she's not telling me the whole story. That there's more to her life than what she's letting me know. I learned to trust her, I grew to love her, and for months, it didn't bother me anymore. Now, we haven't talked in a few days. This is probably the longest we haven't talked since we've been together, so it's obvious that I'm jumping to conclusions.

Your friendly neighborhood nervous SDSU_Aztec
Friday, April 20th, 2007
12:41 am
More thoughts...
Sometimes I get the thought in my head that the more that people brag about how great they are at something, that they're not really all that great to begin with
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People don't always appreciate what they have until they lose it and it's too late to get it back
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I question my feelings a lot, or at least more than I think people question their feelings. Even when things are going great for me, I tend to think, "How long will this last?"
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My students worry me sometimes. They get the idea that as soon as they get into College that they'll magically transform in academic dynamos. What's stopping them from doing that now?

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I'm still rebellious. When someone or something tells me so much not to do something, I'll end up wanting to do it so much more
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I find it very sad when I promise myself something and end up breaking that promise to myself
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The beach and the night sky have the power to calm me more than anything else I know
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I like my ideas. Others like my ideas. But I have the hardest time bringing them to life the way I envision them in my mind
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I find it very hard to believe that my friends are pretty much all gone. Off seeing the world, working in distant cities, or starting families of their own. Although I'm about the only one of us left in San Diego, why don't I miss them yet?
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Eating an Apple and chewing on Cinnamon Gum afterwards is about the most amazing thing I've found out in the last few months
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Tuesday, April 17th, 2007
9:24 am
Update on the life of David
It's hard making sense of my life right now, but, I have to admit that it's fun living my life right now.

School - I decided to return... again. This time around, I want to earn a Sociology degree at the University. I found a very chill job at the hospital that requires a certain set of degrees before they consider hiring you. I can apply as I am now, get the job, and get a decent pay. However, getting the Sociology degree as well, I would be earning twice or almost three times as much. I have to do this

Love - I am still with Taniya. Counting the weeks we've been together, it's been close to a year now. This is the longest relationship I have ever been in. I haven't been happier with a woman before in my life, and I don't want to let go of something so great.

Family - The Mexican Government is investigating my family. After the leaders of the Sinaloa Drug Cartel were caught/killed, there's been so much activity going on within the ranks. Among the activity, one of my cousins who was part of it was gunned-down since he was meant to move up in rank within the cartel after the leaders were bumped-off. So, the Government is looking at my family history thinking that they'll find more people involved in the cartel within the family if they look hard enough. They won't find anything. We're not that kind of family. What they are bothered about is my Military involvement. When we turn 18, it is mandatory for us all to take part in the Military. No questions asked. If you like it, you can stay. If not, you're free to go after you serve the country. So, they find out that I was part of the military, but live in America. They get the idea and feel as if I'm a traitor to the country (which I'm not since I swore allegiance to Mexico when I joined the Military just like everyone else). So, yeah... they think it's weird

Friends - I have none, and it's sad. After graduation, everyone moved out of the city. Those who stayed are either too busy raising a family or working to hang out. And those who are seeing someone would much rather spend time with their significant other than have a night out with their friends. It's funny how it's easy for me to make time for friends even if I'm seeing someone, but when it's them, it's as if no one else exists

Travel - I'm considering a trip to San Francisco. Not a weekend, but a few days. If I go, I'd like taking Taniya along with me to share the city. I know she'd like it, and we'll spend time together which is what she enjoys the most

Work - Still teaching... kids are good/bad when they want... oh, and I gave my first "F" ever last semester. It feels so empowering. I can tell why teachers go on power trips

Music - Recently, I've been into Mexican Pop Music. I noticed how girly it is, but I like some of the beats since they sound 80s-ish
9:22 am
Love At First Sight
"Love At First Sight" by Josh Verdes

There she was
On a warm summers breeze
Just as free as could be
So oblivious to me
As I stand
Taking her in
Everything else seems to fade
As I get up to say

This is it
This is the moment am I right or wrong?
But I've got to catch you before you are gone again.
Don't wanna rush you; I've got nothing to lose.
But I've got this feeling it should be me and you
Palms are shaking
Could this really be...my love at first sight?

Here I stand
Going out on a limb
Searching deep within
For the words to say
She just smiles
As I try to explain
Then she puts her fingers to my lips
As she gets up to say

This is it
This is the moment am I right or wrong?
But I've got to catch you before you are gone again.
Don't wanna rush you; I've got nothing to lose.
But I've got this feeling it should be me and you
Palms are shaking
Could this really be...my love at first sight?

You may not believe
But just wait and keep hope alive
Cuz its there; Oh it's real
And one day you will find
You will find your love at first sight.

This is it
This is the moment am I right or wrong?
But I've got to catch you before you are gone again.
Don't wanna rush you; I've got nothing to lose.
But I've got this feeling it should be me and you
Palms are shaking
Could this really be...
Saturday, January 13th, 2007
9:41 pm
Look Into David's Mind
Last night I had a long day. When I have long days, I normally can't sleep, so I start thinking. I ended up typing all the things that were in my mind
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I'm excited and scared at the same time about my new semester at the University. Excited that once I'm done, I'll never have to take another class ever again. Scared that once I earn my Teaching Credential, my future is going to be pretty much set from then on to the school
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The Numa Numa song has been in my head for a good part of my day. The other part of my day has been conquered by the Waffle Song
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I believe the two factors to my bad mood account to me being hungry because of the diet, and because I haven't talked to Taniya in a whole day
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People who come out saying that they look human, but are really a werewolf/vampire/demon/some kind of spirit make me laugh, then feel a little bad for them
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Sometimes I feel as if it's my duty to be this product of the Board Of Education, when in my heart, I know that I should follow my own teaching style and see where it leads me
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As nice as it is in San Diego, I have this strong feeling inside that is calling out to me in order to go somewhere new
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As much as I like animals, I also believe in survival of the fittest. I fail to understand why some animals need to be conserved. It's not like some animal won't adapt to take over that extinct animal's duties
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I have very few things to worry about in life. Even if I do worry about something, it rolls off my back like nothing. I figure that we're all going to die at some point or another. So, whether we worry or not about things, we'll still end up dying in the future
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I believe that the meaning of life is to love, work, play, and look up at the stars
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I'm a strong believer of seeking the useless
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Learning to do nothing is one of the hardest things to do in life
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I love taking many meaningful pauses
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It's impossible to go out into the world to find yourself, when you have never lost yourself to begin with
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Useless knowledge is more valuable than useful knowledge. It may not make you money, but it is fun to know useless things
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My attitude is what decides how good or bad something is
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Time waits for no one, so make use of it while you have it
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Life begins at the other end of the Tunnel Of Despair
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Failure gives you the chance to try again more intelligently
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Success isn't final. Failure will happen. But, the strength to keep going is what counts
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A Hero to me, is a Coward who keeps on going
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Do something every now and then that scares you

Current Mood: thoughtful
Saturday, November 25th, 2006
12:01 am
Pictures!
It's about time, right? Here's a few for you guys...


At home on my favorite chair...


My favorite DVD...


With El Gato (who is currently on tour in India)...


Thinking...


In the "Noddy Corner" of my classroom...


My latest creation, "Class Hole"
Tuesday, November 14th, 2006
11:29 pm
Update
Just returning for a breather before heading back into battle.

I posted new pictures on my Photobucket. So, look forward to a few of them making a special appearance in my Journal sooner or later.

What's new with the rest of you out there?

Your friendly neighborhood SDSU_Aztec
Wednesday, November 1st, 2006
5:56 pm
*waves arms wildly*
Hey! I'm right here! See me?! I'm still alive!

j/k

I'm doing alright. I've been busy lately and haven't been able to post an entry in what seems like ages. What has been happening with you all lately?

I should get going, but I'd like to say that there are letters on the way heading for Deanna and Chrissy.

Ah, and I'll post pictures here, soon.

So, yeah.

Your friendly neighborhood SDSU_Aztec
Tuesday, October 10th, 2006
10:20 am
Survey About Me
This is funny. YOU fill in the blanks about ME ... even if you don't have any idea, and send it back to ME (via reply). But first post a blank one out to all your friends so they can return the favor to you. Be honest and make sure you repost it blank in your own bulletin so I can do it for you!
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My name?
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Where did we meet?
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Take a stab at my middle name
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How long have you known me?
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When is the last time that we saw each other?
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Do I drink?
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What was your first impression of upon meeting me/seeing me?
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What's one of my favorite things to do?
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Am I funny?
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What's my favorite type of music?
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Can I sing?
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What is the best feature about me?
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Am I shy or outgoing?
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Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?
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Do I have any special talents?
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Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what)?
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I'm hot? Am I not? Go ahead, you can say...
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Have you ever hugged me?
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What is my favorite food?
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Have you ever had a crush on me?
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Am I dating anyone?
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If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be?
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What's your favorite memory of me?
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Who do I like right now?
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What is my worst habit?
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If you and I were stranded on a desert island,
what is the one thing I would bring?
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Are we friends?
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Do I believe in God?
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Am I family oriented?
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Who is my best friend?
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Will you repost this so I can do it for you?
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9:44 am
Video Messages = fun
Email seems so normal. Typing "lol" and such... yeah... So, I started using my camera to record my replies to people about what they have to say to me when they email me. It's a lot more fun, and unlike email and IMing, you can actually tell my tone of voice and body language when I joke around so that people aren't insulted.

So cool...

Your friendly neighborhood SDSU_Aztec
Monday, September 11th, 2006
1:37 am
Panic! At The High School
The Superintendant is coming back... This can be really good or really bad. He's coming to check out the classes, talk to us, and be here all day. Oh, and it's not the old Superintendant from before that hates me. It's a new one now.

I'm sure he'll like my class, but will he like my teaching style? I don't know... I'm confident that it's going to go fine, but at the same time it's like, "What if he doesn't like my methods and fires me?"

I'm thinking too much about this. It'll be fine and nothing will go wrong.

At the other job I have over the weekend, something nice happened. I got myself a promotion and more hours to work. I'm going to work there from 3pm to 11pm on Friday and Saturdays. I love money. When she mentioned it, I'm like, "Nice! When do I start?!" I will still have Sundays free, so that's where I'll end up resting and going out to have fun.

Your friendly neighborhood SDSU_Aztec
Monday, September 4th, 2006
6:22 am
I'm the Juggernaut, b****!
My students are so into this online video. You can do a Google Search and watch it online. It's an X-Men episode that is dubbed with other voices so the story is VERY different than the animation depicts.

Anyway, that's how I feel right now. Very powerful and full of energy. I am in shape, in a good fighting weight, and I'm not worn out during the day. I love this. A great girl, a nice body, money, and teaching is a blast.

Your friendly neighborhood SDSU_Aztec
Thursday, August 31st, 2006
9:03 am
Song Of The Week...
"(What's So Funny 'bout) Peace, Love, & Understanding" by Elvis Costello

As I walk through
This wicked world
Searchin' for light in the darkness of insanity.

I ask myself
Is all hope lost?
Is there only pain and hatred, and misery?

And each time I feel like this inside,
There's one thing I wanna know:
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding? Ohhhh
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding?

And as I walked on
Through troubled times
My spirit gets so downhearted sometimes
So where are the strong
And who are the trusted?
And where is the harmony?
Sweet harmony.

'Cause each time I feel it slippin' away, just makes me wanna cry.
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding? Ohhhh
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding?


So where are the strong?
And who are the trusted?
And where is the harmony?
Sweet harmony.

'Cause each time I feel it slippin' away, just makes me wanna cry.
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding? Ohhhh
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding? Ohhhh
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding?
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